Thursday, October 8, 2009

"You look familiar"

I don't go out a lot. It's not really like me, but with as overwhelming as this last year has been, I think I'm in self-preservation mode. And there's fear now, always fear, that if I will again come home to a neighborhood the way I did on August 25th.

But it's nice to be around other people. Really. Inevitably though, I will get at least one "You look familiar."

I volunteered at Moppet Togs today (the children's consignment sale), and I got this several times. It's an awkward position because I don't really want to be known as that woman who was pregnant when her house burned down in that bad fire, "you remember?" Sometimes I will say, "We've been in the news a lot this year," which of course doesn't really solve anything, just makes people more curious! Sometimes I just shrug my shoulders and say, "I don't know." If they ask for my name and put it together, that doesn't seem as difficult. I guess it's because I don't have to be the one to bring up the fire.

But something else sometimes happens, which I think is great. Sometimes the person is a blog reader, and that's just neat. I've met a few people who read my blog in interesting places, and I love that. I like knowing whose reading. I like to hear their stories. And it makes me feel connected beyond just being "that woman." I've been missing out on connectedness, and this blog is one way for me to reach beyond our year, our situation, and once again be connected.

4 comments:

  1. Brooke- I had a great time chatting with you at Moppet Togs! I feel fortunate to have met you! I will get our fire ladder by the end of the month.

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  2. You too Heather! I too will have a ladder by the end of the month.

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  3. Hi Brooke! Well, it's me again, from So Cali...remember...my brother's family lost their WA home to a fire...I've posted here from time to time. Just wanted to let you know we are connected! Although I don't always leave comments, I read your blog faithfully and follow your wonderful progress. There have been ups and downs, that is to be expected! I'm proud of you! We just got home from a 2 week visit with my brother and his family and got to be guests for 15 nights in their beautiful new home! There emotions mirror yours, which is interesting...I share with them about how you're doing and often it is reflective of how they're doing. Anyway, just sending a hello and big hug today! Take care! Happy Fall!!!

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  4. Hey there!! I am so glad that your family is home. There is definitely a healing process throughout this whole experience, and it's good to know we're not alone (and hopefully good for others to know they aren't either).

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