There is nothing like a morning reference to Nelson Mandela to put your challenges in perspective.
I was watching Good Morning America (just the tail end because Dan let me sleep last night!) and heard Nelson Mandela referenced. The speaker had sat next to him on a plane once. Diane Sawyer asks him if he asked Mandela how he endured his time in prison. The response was something to the effect of not being beaten by our circumstances and that our challenge is how we respond in times of crisis.
This of course made me wonder. Did Nelson Mandela have his dark moments? I am sure he did. Even as a strong person, difficult moments may temporarily defeat us. I don't mean to assume I know how he felt or dealt with his time in jail. But I just cannot imagine that he didn't have one moment in which he wondered why he was asked to carry this burden or endure this darkness. If only he had lived in a time and place to blog about his experience!! Then we could have lived that with him as opposed to keeping those moments private.
I have wondered if I am weak. Have I allowed this experience, these moments, to beat me? Am I as strong as I want to believe I am? Does writing about moments of self-pity expose me to my weaknesses?
I see this experience as a path that is forever unfolding. I will continue to learn and grow from it likely for the rest of my life. I cannot judge myself based on one day or one week. It's ok to have low moments. As Mandela said, "The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." I will rise from this experience. And I will be better for it. And it's ok if I don't always enjoy the ride.
This is my 100th post, which I think is pretty cool.