It's amazing how much power our dreams have. I was peaceful, dreaming of fun, laughing, really, really laughing. I remember rolling on the floor I was laughing so hard, something I haven't done in months.
And then I was caught in a forest fire, stuck as the flames came in around me. I had to drive through the fire to save my life. I remember screaming for help and the pain in my whole body. The pain was so so real. I woke up and was just afraid. I am still afraid. I don't want to relive that pain, so I don't want to fall back asleep. As good as dreams can be, they also have power to uncover our fears and make them more real than they are in the comfort of rationalization.