Wednesday, October 1, 2008


Life changes in an instant.

Losing our home brought so much sorrow and sadness. Our whole world was turned upside down. Dan's college was postponed. Our plans for our son were dramatically changed with regards to how we would structure our days.

For as much sadness as there is over losing our home, there is double the joy in having this baby. He is absolutely precious, and I would do anything to protect him. I am already someone who worries. I always thought I would probably be a little overprotective in the beginning. I worry about all the things that could happen to him. Rationally, I think that the risks are so minimal. That rational thought is overtaken by the thought that the risk of having your home burned down in a wildfire is also pretty minimal, and yet, it happened to us. I try to remember that there are things that are out of my control, and I enjoy every minute I have here and with him.

I love his blonde hair. I can't wait to find out if it is wavy or straight, thin or thick. I love his little nose and the fact that he sucks on his tongue, causing his lower lip to pull in. I love that he sleeps with his hands above his head and that he is a thumb sucker. I love his big feet and long toes. He is so perfect. While I'm still sad about my house, I am so lucky to have this baby to focus on. There is much to be thankful for.


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  2. I am so happy for you and Dan, Kellen is a beautiful little boy. I hope the memories you have with Kellen, will end up clouding the bad memories you have of the fire.
    I hate to break the news to you, but worrying about the irrational things we think “could” happen to our newborns...never ends. To easy some of your worries, I have listed just a few of them that you can remove from your worry list.
    • Remember that your baby will be fine if you touch his soft spot, you are not touching his brain.
    • Sleeping with your hand on your babies chest will not prevent him from not breathing, it will only cause sleep deprivation.
    • When you look into your little guys eyes and he looks back at you crossed-eyed, do not panic! It is completely normal for newborns to cross their eyes, besides they cannot see you all that well anyway.

  3. Congratulations Brooke! The bad news is that the worrying never stops, but it does get pushed to the back of your mind. The good news is that there are so many wonderful things that you *sometimes* stop worrying.

    And I'll add one worry to take off your list to the above

    When he's sleeping but his eyes are fluttering and opening and closing, he's not having a seizure, he's just sleeping. That one got me with Wyatt!